The Love Within.

2008-01-19T18:27:00.000+08:00

To prevent inconvenience for both of us, I've created 2 spaces for me and my por to blog. However, posts we used to publish will still be kept in the left side of navigations under the chinese word of 'memories'. Therefore in order to view us, kindly click on either one of our photos to move on. Thank you! (:

LYCF

BabyFoxy

2008-01-19T06:08:00.000+08:00

rushed to hosp, visit my ah kor. get well soon. he's goin for op on mon le. visit him again on sun before his op again.((: heex. meet por around 10 plu to pass her my ez link card.miss her lorx.had a short chat wit her so long nv saw her aready. before headin off, give a sweet little kiss. after tat went out wit rickson and dun knw wat li de (forget his name again) watched body#19. LOL. to me horror movie=funny movie. why? cos i will laugh. and of cos sometime i get shock too de. cos i'm human! =x laughin watchin horror kinda weird rite. cos see both of them got shock i felt super duper funny. and i laughed omost non-stop. lucky i can control my laughter! hahax, enjoys watchin movie wit both of them. ((: after the show went to 829 and eat. after tat headed to loyang temple as the dun knw wat li (let name him ah li den) and his friend wanna pray. after finish prayin we headed to changi and enjoy the breeze. told rickson and ah li i wanna 跳海, wah lao eh, they stopped oso nv stopped instead said wanna help me. bad rite. -__________-" LOL! later i really jump arx. hahax. after tat headed to 445 as tat ah li friend wanna eat.after finish eatin of cos, home sweet home again. ((: and i swear i can forget you. i make up my mind. you are jux makin me fallin much more on you. but you jux dun wanna accept me. FINE~ i'll be strong. thankx for all those sweet memory from you. let bygone be bygone ba! ((: GOODBYE ELJL!

17/o1/08

went to meet dinosaur at 445. uncle frog, jun jie, willy and jeffery were there too. after awhile willy they all went off le, left me, dinosaur and uncle frog. and guess wat. *HE* come oso. chatted awhile and can see from dinosaur face tat he's not really happy le. he asked me either i wanna stay or left wit him. i couldnt made up my mind. and i jux smile. in the end i told him, i go back awhile more le. so he said nvm you could jux sit here and pei him den.and he walked off. well, i got nothin to say den. =x anyway, when i went back home *HE* msg me, askin me to becareful while on the way back home. sweet uh! ((: den i msg and asked him to pei me and he agree. asked me to go his hse. so as ususal, watched dvd and den see him fall asleep. LOL. the way he sleep is jux so cute. like a baby. ((: heex. anyway, he kiss me once again and i manage to hold his sweet hand. *SWEET* after tat i headed home in the mornin and i didnt attend sch again. =x LOL!

BABY FOXY

2008-01-17T22:53:00.001+08:00

Apologies for not being faithful to this blog. I admire girls who doesn't get affected(maybe not that much) after break-ups from relationships. Relaxed and carefree, I see the happy faces which I'll never achieve after such situations. Honestly, they're my idol and I do envy them. By the way, I'm moving back to this blog right after I'm done editing and have successfully replace this blogskin. Probably will be done by tomorrow, or the day after. Currently this computer does not have any of my photoshop programmes, so I will need to use the other for all the editing. And.. Why the sudden come-back for me you may ask. Well, reason is simple. Me and por agreed to 'start anew' instead of acting like strangers(previously). Therefore I must not see anymore *ahem*'s name in here! Or I'll definitely wreck this whole blog and leave it to decompose. Anyway I'm thinking whether to change my cellphone number. Pretty troublesome for me. Tsk. OH! Por you promised to blog something about ME the other time! Better not fool around with me.. AND...... There's school later, sickening hole.

-LYCF

2008-01-16T20:06:00.000+08:00

GUCCI PERFUME!

toopid face of mine

er jie && mie

best pal of mine!

nv fail to make me SMILE!

reflection

smile

tis make me DRUNK!

*HE* msg me again last 2 days. so happy. but dinosaur wasnt really happy at all. he told me why he wanna meet me i alway give so much reason, but when *DA LI* wanna meet me i ask oso nv ask and meet him straight. tis is because my feelin for him is still there, and seriously say i still like him alot. it been 5 months plus i waited for him. and the fact is i still cant forget him. anyway, he's still carin for me. i'm sick and he would asked me to take care of myself and get more rest. (((: jux kept all the msg *HE* send to me. heex. anyway, my internet can use le. but not wireless. usin the toopid cable. make me haf to sit in livin room instead of my room to use my laptop. zzzz. feel like killin tat internet guy. hahax. give my wireless so much trouble and charge me so ex. toopid ass. *curse him* =x hopefully i can faster get well soon and meet *HIM* again. cant wait. ((:

BABY FOXY

2008-01-13T23:02:00.000+08:00

fri i received msg from *HIM* again. shockin again. ((: tink he's drunk again ba. LOL. mostly he drunk i'll received msg from him. anyway, been sleepin till verix late in tis few days. yest woke up at 8. had a bath and went out to meet elisha and toto they all. went st james power station and club. and i wasn't really feelin verix well tis few days. fever on and off. feelin so down is few days again. kepton thinkin on killin myself, torturin myself. and my mind is goin corrupted soon. so much ting stucked in my mind. and i can't get over it. realise tat i dun haf the trust for anymore guys. feel like gettin in r/s wit butch. they are much better den guys and much more carin. and pls dun let me see the white HONDA bike. (carplate i wont mention) pillion another gal. hahax. anyway, you are still appearin in my mind. mayb for all guys you are still e onli one i could really accept and wont give up. tat the reason i'm still waitin. at least you are much better now. you will msg me sometime. *GLADGLAD*but still when will you be mine?sighs!

我真的受伤了

BABY FOXY

2008-01-10T20:16:00.000+08:00

LOL. at cousin hse again. cant use laptop lately cos my internet down. need someone to repair, so won't be bloggi n so often now. back to sch again and i repeatin my bio science 2. got to attend sch on tues, thurs and fri. sianx lorx. nvm den, onli 2-3 hrs nia. dun knw why feel so depress nowdays. my mind keep on wanted to cut myself or torturin myself again. and out of sudden i'll feel wanted to cry. haix. wat happenin to me again. ): for now, i feel tat i'm alone and ppl are makin used of me. i'm jux their clown. mayb i should make myself disappear one day.

BABY FOXY

2008-01-04T20:30:00.000+08:00

was so happy on 3/1/o8. why again? cos *HE* msg me a sweet nite msg. i thought he wouldnt msg me anymore. was really surprise to received *HIS* sweet little msg. it really brighten up my days. ((: yest was out wit my customer patrick and vincent. they bought me out to haf dinner wit them at a seafood resturant. *NICENICE* after tat headed to a hotel pub and drink awhile and headed home. ((: slack at hse downstair de coffeeshop. saw daddy and the 477 uncle. and guess wat? they were sittin wit my dad. LOL. anyway, msg him again and he replied me. he still workin.and i dun wanna disturb. so as usual he say, i finish work den msg you k. LOL. den no msg from him again. hahax. nvm. ((: anyway, later meetin elisha and makoto they all. goin OCH. and my izzudin kor will be back from thai soon. once again, he stuck in thai and called me for help. the same askin ppl lendin money. hopefully, he will be ok and be here back soon. ((: suggestion to him once is asked him to swim back. *LAUGHS*

BABY FOXY

2007-12-31T19:41:00.000+08:00

i'm super happy today. guess wat? *HE* msg me again. den we had a short sms chat first after tat he told me free den msg me again. and within few mins he msg me again tellin me he hungry and wan to eat me. LOL -______-". cute horx. i told him to ta bao lorx. or wanna meet. den he say come my hse here meet me first la. so i went to prepare myself liao and headed to his hse. at his hse watch video again. ((: and after so long i had his sweet little kiss from him again. heex. my heart jux melted again nahx. i wan him. i wan him, i wan him. at around 5 plus his friend called and we headed to blk 477 coffeeshop. i wanted to hug him but i jux dun haf the courage to do it. haix. nvm den. at least i haf his kisses i'm aready happy. at 477 uncle frog was there. and he keep on disturb *HIM* and me. -___-" make me till so pai sehx. anyway, i msg *HIM* when reached my workplace and told him tat i still waitin for *HIM*. but hopefully he wont avoid me after tellin him tis. and he reply me tat he dun knw wat he wan now. till he knw le den he let me knw. but in my heart i knw tat me and him wont be together de. haix. few more hrs 2oo7 endin and 2oo8 is comin. my wishes for tis yrs is : to haf *HIM*, to haf lots of money, better life, and livin happily. ((: HAPPY NEW YEAR!

BABY FOXY

2007-12-30T04:51:00.000+08:00

at my cousin hse now. LOL. stay over nite at his hse. ((: den mornin headed to my daddy store to haf over lunch. jux now when to pub wit don kor and friend at city plaza. tat ku ku msg me out of the sudden. was so happy. called him and he told me tat he drunk le, msg me tml. damn happy to heard his voice again. i realise tat i still jux couldnt let go of him. )):. chattin wit my cousin and we were tokin abt our daddy. LOL. didnt really realise tat my daddy was from ** before. but he didnt play le. but i knw tat he was quite fierce when he get piss off. same goes to my cousin ah wen dad. but his dad is much more fierce den my daddy. hahax. now got to get far apart from *HIM* and uncle frog they all. cos the ppl they knw is mostly linked to my daddy. -____-" dangerous. and oso heard from my cousin tat our dad till now is still fierce. scary! need to keep my profile damn super low le. if not i'm dead arx. LOL =x. later need to wake up super duper early.

BABY FOXY

2007-12-29T17:19:00.000+08:00

2oo7 is comin to an end and 2oo8 is comin in few days time. times pass so fast. a new year mean startin a new fresh me and forgettin all the past includin him. it really no point of waitin and missin him, when he treatin me like a fool. i really made up my mind. althoght i knw it hard for me but i'll try my verix best. jux had my hair cut meanin a new me and forgettin everythin. tis msg is from someone "i promise i'll treat u good n take u beyond the world of ultimate sweetness."isnt he sweet? ((: but i jux couldnt accept him. mayb is because all the ting happen in the past make me feel insecure now. and i jux cant overcome. haix. mayb give me somemore time ba.

BABY FOXY

2007-12-28T06:14:00.000+08:00

i tink i gettin emo again le. and i keep on wantin to cut myself once again. i feel irritated. i feel like killin myself. and i knw i'm a FOOL! i wan to forget everythin. everythin in the past. everythin of him. and i hate myself now.i 'm not happy at all. althought i alway put on my smile but in my heart i'm not happy at all. who can understand me? i need someone. someone who will be alway here for me. and love me for who i am now. who am i? *SIGHS*

BABY FOXY

2007-12-27T16:50:00.000+08:00

i feel like dyin. i wanna die! tink my old self is comin back. sooner or later my hand will haf those cuts again. ppl are treatin me like a FOOL! agrh F***!

i wanna die

i wanna commit suicide

i jux HATE it

BABY FOXY

2007-12-27T14:15:00.000+08:00

was out whole day wit jess darlin and her cousin till nite. went bugis and saw tat bloody kuku *HIM* had a small chat again. after tat we went back simei. saw zhi yang. den he jio me go underage party and of cos i agree. hahax. den i send jess darlin to the coffeeshop there, den i saw leonard and xuan they all. had a small little chat too and den headed back to EP there, saw willy and his friend at the coffeeshop too. he look more fat and chubby. hahax. when on the way to clubbin, my fone ring anf i called back. it was *HIM* usin jeffery fone to call. and he disturb me lahx,toopid ass. -________-" make me dun haf the mood to go club and wanted to go back and meet him. but in e end didnt nahx. saw elisha at the club too. finally he say, got fate liao rite. hahax. anyway, really enjoyin myself yest nite and i really decided to give up on him. everythin is jux too late. once ting is past, there no way for it to happen again.i wanna wake up from my dream. i wanna forget you,forget every single bit of you. you knw i'm still yearnin for you but you are makin me look like a fool.

I GIVE UP!

BABY FOXY

2007-12-26T03:32:00.000+08:00

was out wit daddy, mummy,bro and his gf and plus my lovely nephew to GIANT shoppin. LOL. bought myself a sushi, salmon sushi my fav. ((: den had a walk at COURTS too. after tat went to MR PRATA to haf our supper. and again TOM YAM i ordered. yummyyyyyyyyyyy. it my fav. when eat finish and we walk back guess who i saw, it *HIM* wit unlce frog and dinosaur they all and a her beside *HIM*. it another gal again. -_______-" it seem like *HE* changin gf omost every week. LOL and tat gal look so merchant. kinda tu lan and sad lorx. told dinosuar i wanna give up on *HIM* and he asked "you sure you can anot?" and i replied him ya, should be. everytime saw him wit diff gal,see liao oso tu lan and sad. there no point of like *HE*'s enjoyin wit another gal even thought he knw i'm waitin for *HIM*. haix. i need someone. )): anyway, enjoyed myself yest even thought i'm workin. heex. god-father was there too and he asked me to ordered somethin to eat. and i enjoyin my sashimi. jux LOVES seein him here.

BABY FOXY

2007-12-24T22:41:00.000+08:00

damn pissed off now. feel like boxin those china guys. knn chiko pei. -_______-", smack their kuku face arx. LOL. heex. edison is here now wit his friend. today quite bz in the pub, all thanks to tat F**ker china ppl. jux HATE servin them. sianx. after work dun knw wan go where. here goes my christmas eve workin in the pub. -___-" but den tml off. YES! hopefully can enjoy myself tml wit friends. ((: update later on again. ((:

BABY FOXY

2007-12-24T20:28:00.000+08:00

enjoyin my christmas count down at workin place wit my buddy steve. LOL!

MERRY X'MAS TO ALL!

BABY FOXY

2007-12-23T21:13:00.000+08:00

workin again, and finally my buddy steve is back wit me. after 2 days of ownself openin and workin. LOL. yest run the pub all alone, superwoman uhs. but lady boss come down at around 12 plus yest. hahax. so tat i could go back home and rest. too tired aready. my customers are so sweet and carin. they see me workin alone and they dun wanna bother me and doin lots of work. hahax and my cust pat was so good tat he give a big tips. ((: after work went went eat wit jian yong and den he sent me back home. after tat ivan wanna meet me awhile. he drove and we went to bedok reservoir. and tis idiot knw my little secret. *SHITSHIT* scare he might tell *HIM*. ho ya, yest to malaysia shoppin wit ting ting and her bf. really enjoyed shoppin wit both of them. her bf was really a joker. kept on make me laugh. bought myself 2 pairs of shirt, a bag and cotton candy for my sweet little nephew. see i'm a sweet ah yi. ((: *YAWNS* feelin tired. forced myself to wake up and meet jess darlin and eug at katong. well, i'm late again. we slack at jack shop till he closed. due to my toopid promise again, tat why i haf to force myself to wake up and meet them. hahax, and they complain me -------- again for bein late lorx. everytime de. ((: anyway, i still miss tat *ahemahem*EEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLL~ LOL. i had a nice chat wit him on sat. yeah!

all bcos of euu;i'm holdin on to

BABY FOXY

2007-12-21T16:10:00.000+08:00

FOTO TIME:

euu are the one tat i holdin on!

2007-12-21T15:52:00.000+08:00

yest went to bugis and guess wat? hahax. *HE* workin worx. and i walk pass den he called me. den i walk into his shop.and we had a short conversation. *GLADGLAD*. den i say him bluff xiao mei mei de. and he laughed. ((: enjoy tokin wit him lorx. after tat i saw ivan, UNCLE FROG. LOL. tink they are goin pub after *HE* finish work ba. later goin to do openin. scare lorx. later saw tat casper. god bless me den. got to clear my bladder at FRIENDS CORNER first before goin to my pub there. den i will stay downstair till su come. ((: got to prepare and ting first le.

BABY FOXY

2007-12-19T16:39:00.000+08:00

yest was kinda emo. dun knw wat happen. ran alone in the pub again till one. drank wit two toopid china guys. they are kinda chiko lorx. -___________-". hmmm, drink quite alot too. been listenin to tis song since mon "bei pan". it a verix nice and kinda sad song. althought my friend keep on complainin stop playin tis song but still i dun care. ((: LOL. when can i meet *HIM* again. miss *HIM* so so so much. update foto when i got time. ((:

BABY FOXY

2007-12-18T19:46:00.001+08:00

at workin place now again. enjoyin my VODLKA LIME. heex. i realise tat i spendin too much money tis few days again. muz save money and stop spendin it le. LOL. and guess wat? yest *HE* msg me. and i'm really happy. and i say *HIM* everytime bluff xiao mei mei. den he say ok lorx if i bluff xiao mei mei den later you come meet me den i rape euu. cos i say him bluff xiao mei mei. den i tell him ok lorx. i not scare of him. wahahahx. in the end nv meet nahx. he muz be either sleepin or drinkin outside lorx. anyway, i got *HIM* a new name called kuku. wahahax. and idiot he called me kuku back. -_______-", anyway i'm really glad tat we are close again and started to msg more and more. hopefully he'll be mine. hahax. oh ya, once again i'm a superwoman cos yest i run the pub alone after 11 pm. yeah and i can manage. ((: aand i do the closin too. three cheers for me. hip hip hooray, hip hip hooray, hip hip hooray! *LOVES* yearnin for euu still *ELJL*

BABY FOXY

2007-12-15T20:44:00.000+08:00

i'm sick now. toopid flu and toopid weather which make me sick.zzzz somemore haf to work. now at workin place updatin post again. luckily not much customers today. hopefully later oso. so i can rest more. damn tirin today oso. althought i slept for 14 hrs, but still IT NOT ENOUGH. fone kept on ringin in-between my sleep. make me till so fed up. cant even haf a nice sleep. zzzz. finally finish my attachment le. can haf my nite life and workin life back. YEAH! my poor buddy steve oso sick today, i pass down my germs to him too. LOL. he oso together wit me here half dead le. god bless us den. ((:

BABY FOXY

2007-12-12T22:46:00.000+08:00

i did somethin bad today. LOL, and it like kinda pai sehx lorx. i shouted at a pt. LOL. cos we wanna change him and he started to shout all vuglar make me till so pissed off tat i shouted at him. and his daughter was like jux beside me. but she didnt care too. hahax. but it kinda pai sehx nahx. cos my another pt told me tat he could heard my voice shoutin oso. loud loud. *LAUGHS* den when i come out from the curtain other pt relative was like lookin at me lorx, and laughin. -______-" one more day to go. and here come my long long long term of hoildays. yeah. i wanna date *HIM* out. but wonderin either he wan not. hmmm, but still he owe me one date tat he promise. ((: he hooked his little finger tat i'll nv ever forget. but dun even knw either he will remember not. *MISSMISS* dream of *HIM* last nite, and he was mine. was really verix happy. but when i woke up, i realise tat it was all a dream. awaitin awaitin. all i'm still waitin is jux euu, ELJL. euu are the one who took away my heart. imisseuu! how i wish i could touches euu and make euu be MINE!

BABYFOXY

2007-12-10T23:48:00.000+08:00

I REALISE TAT

I'M NO LONGER E GAL

I USED TO BE

I'VE CHANGED

WHO AM I RITE NOW?

AND WHERE MY OLD SELF?

IT GONE . . .

*SIGHS*

2007-12-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

super duper happy yest while workin. ((: havin a good chat wit *HIM*. it been long tat we chatted on the fone. but he still tellin me he got no gf at all. it like watever lorx. jux called me toopid or an idiot can. i jux couldn't forget him at all. i dun mind we are friend, as long as we are close i'm happy. goin to put some ink on my body le. yeah, either tis fri or sun. another 4 more days, my freedom is comin and will start to work everyday le. chiong workin. save money.

你要的不是我

BABY FOXY

2007-12-09T21:11:00.000+08:00

at workin place again. so bored! nothin to do again lorx. drink drink drink again. enjoyin my vodlka lime now. buddy steve make for me. hei. yest went to power station after work. was enjoyin still mornin. ((: my throat hurt again. drink too much le. hmmm. izzit really not worth it to wait for someone like him. he knw i like him but he got himself a gf. even they break i tend to msg him he still dun really care. and den patch back wit his ex. haix. how am i gonna forget euu. for now, i'm quite happy. cos euu will reply my msg, and when saw euu, euu will tok to me too. no longer cold to me. and euu will gave me a real big sweet smile. euu are the one i'm holdin on to. it been like 4 month plus aready i'm still waitin for euu. i jux couldn't forget euu. jux cos of euu, i gave up all other guys. been askin myself when will euu be mine? waitin for my wishes to come true. ((:

when can i lay in your arms once again

BABY FOXY

2007-12-08T21:35:00.000+08:00

i'm freakin bored rite now. workin now and yet i still can update my post. why? cos there so so little of customers today. it like less den ten lorx. been usin the com since jux now. wahahax. feelin kinda emo lorx. jux feel so sad over *HIS* stuff. haix. still tinkin abt all those ting. althought mandy had told me alot of tings, but still i cant do it. and i cant forget him. and i been wonderin who am i now. it like it doesn't been like my old me. i'm not actin as my own self. it since like i turnin to another person. i will ask tis to myself everyday "who am i now", "why i will become like tis." i wanna stop everythin. but how? i jux couldnt stop myself and neither do i wanna hurt anyone anymore. oh god, who can help me. i'm lost, totally lost. i dun knw wat i wan and wat i wan to do too. i'm feelin tired too. super damn tired. i wanna haf a good rest. a long and good rest. ): i'm sad!

i'm lost totally;

who am i now?

a new me or an old me

BABY FOXY

2007-12-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

6/12/o7

was out wit por to MR PRATA eat. ((: was enjoyin wit her. and saw *HIM* at 477 de coffeeshop wit his gf. kinda sad lorx. jux feel like cryin and hurt too. haix. how i wish i'm the one who is sittin beside him rite now. both of them are so quiet, doesn't look like couple at all.all the while i'm jux still waitin for euu. when will euu be mine huh? but i'm still glad tat euu msg me tat day and the day i saw euu and euu gave me a sweet smile. ((: jux love it so much. and i love my por too. she's MINE!

5/12/o7

was out wit er jie to bugis. cos she wanna go interview. and i walk pass *HIS* workin place again. ((: he saw me and give me a SWEET smile. aaaahhhhhhh~ i'm jux felt so so so happy can. heex. and er jie bought me a top. after tat i went to meet jian ping kor and his friends. we went to K BOX and sing. really enjoy ya. hahax. ((:

3/12/o7

i'm so happy. "HE" msg me automatic and tis the first time. he askin me where am i, can go eat anot? cos he was at CGH. LOL. but i reply him tat i jux finish my break time. hahax. den he say nvm.

when will euu be mine

i'm still waitin boy

BABY FOXY

2007-12-07T01:54:00.000+08:00

A day out with my dearest por after so long. And a day out after trying to stay at home for 2 days. I wore like an ahpek; singlet and boxers. Super malu lah! Went over to Mr Prata to eat. Then walked here and there to slack. Talked for awhile and played with one cute cat sitting at the busstop near 465. Super no life, but better than staying at home. Darling coming back tomorrow. Ha. Anyway, have made up my mind. Probably too confused in the matter of guys thus this decision. However, I'm loving my life. Maintain maintain .. [:

LYCF -

I can't handle my problems well

Let alone a small decision

Time will help me ..

Probably.

2007-12-03T03:35:00.000+08:00

still in the pub workin i mean relaxin instead. hahax. usin steve laptop and update my post. mandy and nova ppl are still here drinkin. so happy to see mandy again. it been so so so long tat i didnt seen her le, so glad ((:and i jux bought myself a new fone N76. no more red so i get black de instead den. hmmm, kinda like the fone althought the fone batt run dead fast but i dun mind chargin it everyday. and i'm broke now. spendin too much money on clothes, jeans, bag without a weeks. oh gosh, if tis continue i'll be dead den. so muz save money le. ((: another 8 days to holiday and i'm freedom from sch le. *HAPPY* hmmm. later got to work at hosp at 8 dun knw can tahan anot. gonna be dead tired at tat time den. dun need sleep. and once again I'M A SUPERWOMAN. (((((((:

BABY FOXY

2007-12-02T18:05:00.001+08:00

por change liao, buay zi dong ask me out liao.
where's our everyday meetup even tho' it's awhile?!
FOREVER DE ! tmd. lol. sua lah ~ ._.

2007-11-29T15:47:00.000+08:00

was out wit mindy yest to bugis shoppin. ((: it our first time meetin out and we had a good time shoppin together and chit chat too. b4 we started our shoppin, i told mindy we go to bugis village and find my friend first. den we headed to *HIS* workin place and ivan was there too. cos i say i wanna see his smile. when reached there i saw *HIM* and i tok to him *HIM* too. so happy nahx. i told him when free, pei me go watch movie lehx. den he was like see when he day off. LOL. and he disturb by sayin i go out wit euu, euu pay my everythin arx? hahax.den i told him i sell euu away first lorx. den he laughs. den he did promise me nahx sayin he day off comfirm will ask me out. and i told him tat euu everytime bluff me wan, and he say tis time won't le and he put out his little finger to kept his promise. and i touches his little finger. heex. it been long i didn't touch his hand le. *HAPPY* but den i jux read his ex blog. he still wit his gf and his ex is like still waitin for him. haix. i'm still waitin for euu. ((: all i ever wan is euu euu euu and euu onli. but den i still glad now is because we gettin abit close again and not like b4 le. as long as i manage to see euu i'm glad. sianx. later need to go work. 7.3o started and dun knw wat time finish. i gonna get a nap first ba.

all i ever wan is euu *ELJL*

BABY FOXY

2007-11-27T23:21:00.000+08:00

27/11/o7

didnt saw him today, kinda sad. but nvm. at least i manage to see him twice yest.((: jux finish writing my reflection. another 12 more days i'll grad liao. HOLIDAYS comin. yeah! goin to get my bath le, meetin my bro to eat at MR PRATA. hopefully can see him again. ((:

26/11/07

super happy on tis day. why? cos i saw *HIM* again in bus 293. we took the same bus and he has a empty sit inside and he let me sit. AAAAAHHHHHH~ jux so excited nahx. we had a long nice chat. heex. and he disturb me by tellin me i stomache help me do injection. hahax. and i asked him why look so tired, muz be sleepin late at nite rite. guess wat he say? not enough sleep even he sleep at 11 plus. rubbish rite. -_________-" and i keep on sayin him pig. when reach inter he asked me i start work at 1 izzit den i say why? euu wanna treat me drink kopi and makan liao den go work izzit. and guess wat he say, ya but next time early bit more nahx. LOL. i told him tues and he say can but need to wake him up. hahax. and i told him aya, arx bo when euu off tell me nahx den we go out. euu everytime nv msg me wan. zzzzz. LOL. and he say okok. hahax. and guess wat again. I SAW HIM AGAIN AT NITE. jux so FATE nahx. ((: he smile at me too. still feelin regret of not acceptin him at first. now i'm still awaitin. sometime i jux feel like msg him tellin him tat i still waitin but tis gonna scare him off so better not. ((:

我需要你的爱

不管多少阻碍不求什么未来

不管命运会怎么安排

我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪

狠狠地把心痛了断

深深地把一切重来

我会等待你的爱!

BABY FOXY

2007-11-27T17:10:00.001+08:00

Back blogging. I know I'm someone lazy, so I never fail to miss publishing daily posts. Somehow life everyday is either about bikes, liquor or slacking. Not forgetting my lovely viceroy.

Being with them benefits me, because I learnt alot. And I realise that when someone cares for you, he really does his best to care just to see you smile. No matter how far you are, no matter how busy he is, he'll just come all the way looking for you just because he cares. Many told me to give it a try, saying probably we could last long together. But something unknown is stopping me. Somehow I'm afraid of something, without knowing what it is. Maybe I kept thinking too much, maybe I didn't want him to come so far just to see me everyday. But for all I know, these are all excuses. Call me stupid, because I don't know how to treasure, I never know how to. And I know, the chance I had is probably gone. Because I think I've already gone too far.

All my pasts are long forgotten, I can't remember a thing. I don't know whether I should be happy or sad for my memory loss. I'll just let it be. Apparently something is urging me to get my fingers to punch in a few more messages and send it to him, altho' I've already sent 3pages of msg, 1 goodnight msg, and a last message for the day. I FEEL FUCKING GUILTY !

Update some other time.

Probably the world's idiot, FENN.

2007-11-25T02:03:00.000+08:00

*YAWNS* feelin super duper tired tis few days. didn't even haf enough sleep as well. and i gain more weight again le which mean. . . . . i really need to go on DIET le nahx. =x toopid tummy. it gettin more obvious aready.sooner or later i will haf to take either slimmin pill or some slimmin tea liao. -_________-". my pub daddy say i look skinny and he wanted me to eat more. so everytime he come is jux for me and order food for me. isn't he sweet. ((: hahax. and i realise tat i sill cant get over euu after 3 month plus has pass. till now i'm still awaitin for euu. wonderin either euu still attached anot. hmmm. . . . but i happy tat i will be able to see euu in bus durin my sfternoon shift. ((((((: i wanna go sleep le. damn sleepy update more when i awake. ((:

BABY FOXY

2007-11-18T13:15:00.000+08:00

yest was out wit my customer aka my friends now to BQ. and i nearly drunk. back home was super duper giddy tat i cant even walk straight and open my hse door. -______________-" the reason why i nearly drunk was they bought two flamin lambogine(is tis how it spell?) for my belated bday. idiot rite. and i shouldnt told them abt my bday. and it justin who order first follow up by alex. ho ya. tat alex he remind me of *HIM*. why? cos he omost the same as him. i jux knw him and den went BQ le he intro me to his friends tellin them i'm his gf. and he did the same ting as *HIM* bought me a red rose. ahhhhhhh~ really miss him alot. and he workin back at bugis liao le. tat mean . . . . i could see him there again. and i smsed him he reply. he no longer like so cold toward me liao. tat mean he will ask me wat am i doin ,eat aready. jux so super duper happy now tat i cant stop laughin. (((((((((((((((((((((: jux really wish tat god will make my wish come true. all i ever wan is you. heex. back to the story, after i reach home i vomitted. -_________-" LOL. den er xin. and now i feelin dehydrated liao. keep on feelin thirsty. sooner or later die of dehydration. =x tata~

all i ever wan is you boy!

BABY FOXY

2007-11-17T04:40:00.000+08:00

16/11/07

was at hougang plaza de k box. singin and enjoyin. ((: tata~

15/11/o7

was super duper damn tired. didnt sleep the whole day and headed to work straight. and i was so happy too. my friends mei ling, germaine and li ping celebrate my bday durin break time. germaine bought me a small slice of cake from PRIMA DELITE. and li ping bought me soy bean wit pearl at mr bean and mei ling treat me eat rice. ((: hahax. and my teacher bought me a card and asked them to sign. it jux so SWEEEEEEEEEET. and i'm touched. after workin i went home and sleep till nite. family wake me up and sing me bday song. LOVES my family too. and tis is how i spend my 18th bday~ SLEEEEEEEEEEPIN AT HOME! -________-"HAPPY 18 B DAY TO ME & 16 B DAY TO FEN POR

14/11/o7.

was out to power station. bday celebrated wit tat fatt daddy and his friend wei jie && andy. ((: really enjoys myself there. and friends msg me happy bday. jux LOVES them so much can! it make me feel tat out there friends are still carin for me and i not alone. i got more den 18 of bday bash. -______-" most id from UNKNOWN HUMAN. *LAUGHS* cos when they dance they either stepped on my feet or hit my head. knn lorx. mayb is i'm too short le. didnt sleep and headed to work straight away.

BABY FOXY

2007-11-14T18:02:00.000+08:00

another 6 more hrs to bday. and i was not lookin forward to it. i wish my bday is still far away. haix. stop askin me where i'm goin to clebrate. cos i NOT CELEBRATIN my 18th bday! kinda sad. but nvm. gals friend are all bz. except for guys friend. they wanted to celebrate for me, but i jux dun haf the mood to celebrate. i dun knw wat wrong wit me now. argh~ kinda emo now. =x and i'm BORED! no one at home. i'm all alone once again. well nvm. i used to it aready. haix sad he now no longer workin at bugis aready. cant see him anymore. )): *imisseuu* anyway god pls grant my wish! happy early bday to mie and FEN por por~

BABY FOXY

2007-11-14T01:00:00.000+08:00

i'm so happy today. jux reach home. guess i'm out wit who. is FEN por por. ((: we celebrate our bday early together. heex. she bought me a cake and we went changi celebrate. and yup it jux onli me and her. den we had alot of ting to tok too. it was like it was really damn long we had tis outin. and of cos i really enjoys. thankx por for cheerin me up. LOVE ya. ((: anyway dun drink so much tml, anythin jux give me a call and i'll be there. countin down to b day. another 23 HRS more to bday le. and i'm 18. LOL. old le. mostly i wont be celebratin my b day le ba. no mood. goin sleep le nite.

BABY FOXY

2007-11-13T18:22:00.000+08:00

Months and months of not updating/posting in this blog, I'm finally here. Probably a long break I've taken, neglecting almost everything in here. Anyway, life is good. Hopefully a post in here would make this tear-machine por happier .. I'm no longer someone whose over sensitive, bad-tempered and I've learnt how to control my own attitude. At least everything is improving since November onwards. 2 days to 15 November which means both our birthdays .. and it's advance celebrating time later[:

yuci aka sharkfin

I'm not hei xin fen !

2007-11-13T01:10:00.000+08:00

feelin super duper tired. didnt sleep last nite. was at derrick de boss chalet. althought it bored but it kinda fun too. LOL. den waited for frankie, derrick boss de younger bro to come down. after tat they play card named si ki pi. LOL. i jux sit beside frankie and watch them played. those who lost will haf to drink. and i oso kanna lorx. i didnt play but i support frankie and alan i got to drink lorx. -_______-" bully sehx. we played till mornin six plus and they were like goin drunk le lorx. wahahax. and frankie sleep till like a dead pig. =x hehs. anyway, jux now meet gek ming and gary they all. gek ming wanna intro me "his" shuai buai but i was like late lorx so they went back first. so wasted sia. hahax. hmmm. friends asked me to tink twice b4 gettin r/s wit butch. but den i was like i really dun mind. as i really verix disappointed in guys lorx. let see how den. ((: kinda sad too. tink he no longer workin at bugis le. walk pass last fri and today his workin place. didnt saw him at all. and the staff was like totally diff le. mayb cant see him le. sad lorx. ppl askin me to give up on him. but den i try but cant. i goin to leave to fate le ba. see who gonna be my MR/MRS rite den. is either a butch or a pure guy.my bday wish is still to haf *HIM*!

2 MORE DAYS TO BDAY!

SWEET 18

BABY FOXY

2007-11-11T03:39:00.000+08:00

back from my MIA. i'm feelin better now. on back my fone again le after so many days i off it. ((: i really lettin go of everythin. dun really wanna tink much le. anyway, 4 more days to my bday. wonderin wat to do. mayb stayin at home le. sianx. it like my 18 bday and i still didnt plan it yet.
friends wanted to help me celebrate, but i still waitin for someone to celebrate for me. hopefully my bday wish will come true. i'm still awaitin for *HIM* to come to me. bbut it will nv be. )': all i'll do is to wait for him. i gonna be a pig soon. eat too much today le. guess wat i eat? hmmm, i eat chicken chop, fries, green pea, tempura fish, chicken wing and tom yam soup. LOL. alot rite. feelin SUPER DUPER damn full lorx. -__________-" and i really LOVES my life now. i got a lovin daddy at the pub. he will come and visit me and order food for me to eat. ((: he jux so sweet can. and lovin brother wil. oso haf good buddy too. SU, STEVE and my beloved JESS. but she not gonna work wit me next week le. so sad. she'll be at friend corner form next week. so it will left wit SU and STEVE. heex. HAPPY WORKIN. ((:

BABY FOXY

2007-11-04T22:35:00.000+08:00

BRAINWASHED

-MIA-

all i'll do is give up & forget everything!

BABYFOXY

2007-10-31T18:24:00.000+08:00

i'm so sad. jux read through his ex blog again. his gf was older den him and i feel tat he still like his ex. haix. i still cant forget abt euu. i been yearnin for euu and i been wantin to see euu. really miss euu damn lots. i say i gonna forget euu but how? tink wasnt goin my way. the more i wanna forget abt euu the more i bump onto euu. when will our fate come huh? it goin to be 3 month since i waited jux for euu. really hope tat i could lay in your arms once again. anyway,i goin to change job again ba. most slightly will change to another pub at paya lebar there. ((: later goin down to see how the enviroment first. LOL. countin down to my special day, another 15 more days. heex. jux cant wait worx.

Label:真的很想你

BABY FOXY

2007-10-27T06:55:00.000+08:00

jux reach home. was out wit biao ge and his friends. *LAUGHS* really enjoys wit them. we meet up at around 12 plus. biao ge drive and we went to simpang bedok and eat first. hmmm. the nasi goreng pataya not nice wan. tasteless. -___________-" next time order my FAVOUR TISSUES PRATA again liao. ((: after eatin finish, we headed to bugis to play pool. LOL. i bai ka still can win them lehx. bbut not all times nahx. i onli lose 2 match nia. ((: my pool has improve much more le. *HAPPYHAPPY* was laughin all the way at there wit them. jokin and foolin around. ((: around 3 plus den we headed to MUSTAFA CENTER for a walk. due to i wanna look for small bottle of hard liqour. like BOMBAY,CHIVAS,BLACK LABEL. when we reach there, we were like enjoyin ourself there like a small kid lorx. wahahax. playin around and laughin. den smell and spray the perfume. some perfume were like damn fcukin smelly lorx. -________-"
but didn't foundmy stuff. until we walk out of the shoppin mall, and i wanted to walk abit
further. to see still got wat to shop. den biao ge wanna buy drink so we headed to the 24 hrs mini mart. and to my surprise, i finally found my hard liqour le. it was damn so cute and small. i swear i gonna come back and buy again. the small bottle of CHIVAS and BOMBAY is so cute. told biao ge and asked him to bring me here again to buy.((: after a long walk, my knee was hurt again. and it was damn painful. my whole lehx swollen now. it look like a pig leg le. :'( sooner or later my knee will be chopped off! oh ya, i saw him again. yest at the inter.he missed the bus so we didn't took the same bus. and he was like rushin to work. he walked pass me. ((: haas, i'm jux so happy nahx. and he was late for work. is tis FATE?

Label:yearnin for euu still.

BABY FOXY

2007-10-25T03:37:00.000+08:00

jux read through someone blog again. and i'm jux so sad again. she say tat he and his ex got back together again le. it like haix. seem like we are onli really mend to be friend ba. althought i said tat i wanted to give up on euu. but till now i still can't. i still hopin for someday tat i would lay in your arms again. really missin the days euu used to call me and chit chat. ((: and worry for me. when will it happen again? went to see doc today due to much more pain on my knee. but lucky it jux swollen and nothin else. double comfirm wit a X-RAY, phew~ till now the pain is still there. even the toopid painkiller can't stop the pain on my knee. -____________-" useless painkiller. it was like sour pokin pain. i wanna chop offmy knee can. argh~ MC tml, sad got to replace on sat le. wasted~ wonderin wat can i do tml? hopefully is to see him again. oooooooop! (;

Label: i miss euu

BABY FOXY

2007-10-23T22:04:00.000+08:00

i in a super duper happy mood.((: why? reason cos i saw him and i took the same bus as him. bus 293. FATE rite. heex. and den i jux sit beside him. we had a little chat too. he asked me wat happen to me. and i told him lorx. *LAUGHS* he oso haf some major injury on his left arm. asked him and he told me he fall too. zzzzzz. he asked me to take care of myself and dun be so careless. and asked either i got see doc anot. LOL. and i say need mehx? had a fall need to see doc wan mehx? and he jux laugh. hahax. jux really damn happy nahx. i msg him when i reached my work place. asked him to take care and he replied too. ((: hmmmm. my knee is gettin worse. it gettin more swollen. it so damn painful. if still not well den i really need a doc le. god bless!

BABY FOXY

2007-10-21T01:49:00.000+08:00

went to PULAR UBIN today wit kor,amelyn jie and her two friends. so idiot lorx. go there okok but den come back home i become handicapped liao. so sway. had a fall on bicycle lorx. thankx to the slope and the stone. too bumpy and i lost my control. nearly disfigure sia. lucky i used my hand to block my face. if not....... verix pai sehx lorx. =S at first can tahan the pain wan. den slowly walk back, wah lao a. my injury gettin more and more painful till i cry. -_____-" till now it still so painful lorx. and still i can go to work. cos due to not enuff staff. damn it. bbut den it ok lahx. my customers all was so sweet and carin. told them wat happen. althought they laugh due to my dumbdumb act *LAUGHS* but they do ask me to take care and put medication oil. ((: thankx ya. and toopid black pig put qing cao you on my wound lahx. and iit super duper damn pain lahx. omost cry. :'( still bluff me not pain. and yet i'm so toopid to trust. -_________-" dumbass! anyway,i tis is my injury. it not so obvious and it more den tat.

the wound on my left knee

the major cut on rite hand

the blue-black on my rite leg

tis two foto is my rite hand. verix serious.

hopefully there no scar!

BABY FOXY

2007-10-19T00:23:00.000+08:00

today was damn so so so sway lorx. in e ward kanna say by patient,accidently cut my thumb and patient fall. zZzZ. wth~ tat bed 23 say i rough. bloody hell -_______-". $%#^$#. i not rough to patient k. dun forget euu in C class ward no longer A class ward lahx~ not happy den go back to your A class lorx. ASS! i'm so full now. jux now went to MR PRATA makan wit my da jie && her bf. LOL. eat my favour TISSUE PRATA. yummy~ ((: manage to see him again. heex. even though it a far distance. i was in the car and it pass through 477 coffeeshop. jux so so happy nahx. i make up my mind le ba. i'll try. try my verix best to give euu up ba. it jux so obvious tat euu jux playin wit my feelin ba. euu wasn't really real to me. goin catch some sleep le. nite~

因为太喜欢你

我将会学着放弃你!

BABY FOXY

2007-10-15T23:49:00.000+08:00

该不该放弃你? till now i still hopin for euu. i took my courage to msg euu again, and euu reply. i was so glad. ((: jux really hopin to lay in your arms. bbut den i dun tink it will. euu are so cold to me now. euu wont even msg me now. how i wish the time would bring me back to 12o8. where i first knw euu. and the first kiss on my forehead b4 euu headin back home. gosh~ i really missin it. friends was askin me to give up. i tryin to but it hard. watever i tink of it. i'll drink and wanna make myself drunk. jux to stop tinkin. i even go enjoy myself wit friends and spend time wit them. but den i jux cant stop tinkin of euu. haix. jux now went downstair eat wit daddy, first time sia. nv eat wit daddy b4. hahax. eat till so full. full till i wanna vomit now. wanna go orr orr le. so tired. ((; nitey~

LABEL: 我还是很想你!

BABY FOXY

2007-10-14T06:36:00.000+08:00

so bz lately tat i dun haf the time to blog and go online. *LAUGHS* jux got back home not long. really enjoy myself at velvet dragon. it is the second time i go there. ((: enjoy the music and dance. saw my friends keng they all and tat joseph. *LAUGHS* den i gu yi dance wit his brother infront of him. den he BTH and walk off. super duper shiok sia. and den make few friends over there toO. ((: ho ya, i saw him again on 11/1o/o7. he was in bus 293 ans i was in bus 29. when my bus turn into the inter i jux turn my head to see in another bus and i saw him. and i jux read amanda blog. she say tat he and his gf break liao. i'm jux so happy. i still hope tat i could lay in his arms. still awaitin. hope tat i can get wat i wan. ((: and i promise my attitude and stuff will change. LOL goin sleep on. later still need to meet mandy and go hosp visit kenji the smelly black pig. ((: nite~

BABY FOXY

2007-10-08T00:40:00.000+08:00

back home again. out wit mandy to bugis. bought a pair of tight jean.((: and i walk pass his workin place too. saw him. heex. jux so happy lahx~ lalala~ after tat went to cinelusure to take foto. and meet up thomas there. we went to sing K and den headed to watch movie "resident evil" nice show ya. after movie den headed back home. sianx, tml start attachment le. need to go to head soon le. nite, i'm still waitin~

BABY FOXY

2007-10-07T03:00:00.000+08:00

heex. i quite happy today. ((: meet kang in the mornin after tat pei him go change and den after awhile go 477 de coffeeshop eat. eat finish liao den kang wanna go gamble and try his luck. so we went to tat same place again. ivan was workin. kang play in e end no win no lose. LOL. he bet ten dollar and take back again. after ta we headed to TM and watched moive " detective". hmmm, the show not bad nahx. show finish abt 4 plus den we meet jeffery and headed to his hse. jun jie and willy oso went along. cos they wanna upload his PSP. den at jeffery hse watched TV and waitin for them. within awhile guess who came. to my surprise is DA LI and froggy. i didn't knw he will come to. it fate. ((: at first i'm quite sad toO. cos we didn't tok at all. i jux keep on tou tou look at him. and i jux smile. i'm really glad tat i can jux see him. he sit verix near to me toO. heex. jux really got the mixed feelin of happy tat i can see him and sad we didn't tok to each other. after finish we took the same lift down. i still the same jux look at him and smile to myself. like pervert sia -_______-". den he headed to jun jie car and kang pei me headed to busstop to take bus as i goin off work. i jux cant stop my eyes from seein him. ((: reach work place and i started drinkin as mood wasn't so good. i told my stuff to ethel and mandy. ethel asked me to msg him and dun give up. so i took my courage to msg him. i msg him "hihi,wat you doin ? (:" at first i thought he won't reply. 5 mins past i check my fone,he replied. aaaaahhh! jux so happy. he replied me "hi,i;m eatin, why?" den i replied him wit" askin lorx, how your hand liao?" den he say "better aready lor. i heard tat euu workin pub? why work pub?" and i told him "single mahx. and jux to numb myself" and he replied again, "aiyo,dun drink so much and be careful ok. tis kind of place verix dangerous. take good care of yourself." den i told him," kk, actually i dun drink so much unless got no mood" and he told me" or ok but try not to drink so much.i do my tings first ok? take care." so i jux replied wit" ok i'll try. euu take care toO. ((:" althought it jux a 4 short sms, but i'm glad he reply me and show me care. i will still yearnin for your return. i jux missneuu damn lots. ((: i'm still waitin~

BABY FOXY

2007-10-04T07:45:00.000+08:00

back home again. and i'm so so sad and hurt now. my tears rolled down from my eyes once again. haix. biao ge drove past geylang lor 42. passby a pub where by da li bring me to once b4. and i saw willy. msg willy and biao ge make a U-Turn for me jux to tok to them awhile. ((: and he was there toO....... wit another gal. jeffery told me is his gf. when i heard tis i force myself to smile and tellin myself i might heard wrongly. as they two weren't so close. say goodbye to them and headed back to biao ge van. and den my tears started rollin. i msg and asked jeffery again to double comfirm and he send a short and simply ans YA. my heart was so hurt. i still waitin for him and in e end i get tis. i was quiet all the way when biao ge drove me back. i'm wordless. i been yearnin for euu,but euu were wit another gal. it hurt me to see euu wit her. but i'll bless euu. :'( once again, i'll see when i get my smile back. nite ppl~

BABY FOXY

2007-10-03T23:09:00.000+08:00

*YAWNS* i'm bored now. no place for me to go. mayb i'll go to bed after i blog ba. kinda tired toO. ((: ppl say i'm like a pig. sleep and sleep and sleep. no matter how long i sleep i still feel tired. OMFTIAN, tink sooner or later i really will become a pig. -___________-" haix, when will i forget euu? i been tryin so hard but still i'm yearnin for you. it goin to be 2 month i'm still waitin for euu. but den i tink euu aready happily wit another gal. but den i jux still wait ba,till my heartx is dead for euu. meetin biao ge awhile more. pei him go eat. makan again. ((: bbut den i goin on diet cos i'm FAT. -__________-" cut down on food le bbut not on my fav CHOCOLATE! hehs.

BABY FOXY

2007-10-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

jux wake up not long. *YAWNS* tinkin where to go later again? play majong at downstair? LOL. oh gosh,my attitude gettin more and more fcuk up. if i continue wit tis type of attitude i dun knw how long i can survive. and i simply hate ppl lockin me at home. meetin me liao and lock me at home. wtf is tis, meet me and lock me at home. i rather go meet and spend time wit other friends. rather den stayin at your hse watch tv, no diff from stayin at home -_______-" dumb ass! i'm bored now. and kinda lazy to get my butt up to go out toO. argh~ i wan a GF NOT bf. any ppl wanna intro me butch? i'm still waitin. i dun wan guys anymore. hehs. givin up in trust and no more givin in. tis is me! ((: unless i could haf him again by my side EL, i still missin euu lots and yearnin to lay in your arms!

就让秋风带走我的思念

带走我的泪

我还一直静静守候在

相约的地点

求求老天淋湿我的双眼

冰冻我的心

让我不再苦苦

奢求你还回来我身边

BABY FOXY

: 缘份

2007-10-01T01:00:00.000+08:00

it been like a week i didn't update blog le. start workin now le. yest workin in the pub and it my second days. really enjoy workin there and drinkin of cos. hahax. cust open one chivas and he asked the staff to drink wit him and of cos i drink toO. it was so nice. hehs ((:after my work went eat wit darren,malcolm,steve and my cust henry. it my second day of seenin him and he told me he's serious of wooin me. it was like wtf man -______-". somemore he 26!! but age doesn't rite. anyway,who care? i dun wanna get into r/s. and i still can't forget him. tat the main ting. hope ting get well for him and i'll be able to see him when i go to bugis. ((;. meet wei kang last 2 days,before i go to work. and i gave him a nick name called 鸡蛋. cos his face really look like one. LMAO man. he bth me toO. anyway he not bad lahx. will send me either till my work place there or till enous there and pei me wait for bus. i still waitin for my 缘份 to come!

BABY FOXY

2007-09-24T17:50:00.000+08:00

i'm sick aready. havin high fever and headaches cum giddy. and feel like vomittin somtime. ho gosh,my whole famiy are sick now.zZzZ. and they pass the germs to me. -_____-" yest went out at around nite 1 plus.go MR PRATA find friends. guess who i saw at 477 de coffee shop? heex. it him. but he seen to change le. he dye his hair to golden. he was wit froggy and baby. i askedhim why dye your hair till like tis? he jux smile at me. to me, it seem like he change.my heart indeed hurt. how i wish he could speak more to me. well nvm.i'm gald i saw him and he smile. ((:

BABY FOXY

2007-09-23T15:04:00.000+08:00

home again. tokin to kang now. *LAUGHS* tokin rubbish make me laugh till cramp. i workin in pub now le. start work next fri le. ((: the pub name is SHARKY PUB. kinda woo lu woo lu. LOL. hopefully i'll stay long down there. lookin forward to work there. heard from kang tat his hand hao le. *HAPPYHAPPY* . hmmm. i still missin him. still tinkin abt those ting and my heart hurt. :'( been tinkin why i dun wanna accept him at first till when it late den i wanna accept him. i'm still waitin for euu. i really misses euu alot. i can't stop myself from missin euu. if time can bring me back to the past, i wanna it to bring me back to the time where i first met euu and the first kiss goodbye on my forehead before euu headin home. it really verix sweet. and i love the way euu smile at me when i'm alway look sad. whenever i tink of euu my heart hurt and my tears roll down from my eyes. when will tis stop? i been tryin to numb myself but still, i can't make it. hopefully i work in the pub can numb myself from tinkin and missin abt euu. and i had enough le, i lazy to care every single ting., watever ting euu wanna do go ahead! i haf NO MORE FEELIN. i onli got feelin for him and i onli care much more for him and not for others. i'm a HEARTLESS PERSON now k. so i won't feel anythin. euu wanna hurt me go ahead cos i won't AT ALL

我们还能不能能不能再见面

我在佛前苦苦求了几千年

当我在踏过这条奈何桥之前让

我再吻一吻你的脸

BABY FOXY

2007-09-21T22:44:00.000+08:00

FINALLY i'm BACK in sing le. *LAUGHS* really enjoys myself there. eat,shoppin, play and sleep? sleep is actually nope. cos we slept round 1 plus 2 den wake up around 8 plus to continue. hehs. anyway really enjoy lahx. jux read someone blog. kinda sad ba. they both contact le. and somemore he bought food for her too sometime. haix. seriously say i still missin euu alots. it hard for me to forget euu. i tryin verix hard to let go of euu. but still i can't. )): and ho ya,ppl out there if euu wanna tok bad abt me jux say infront of me. dun need to back mouth me de. FCUKIN ASS. __ mayb i jux MIA myself? hehs. let's see den. ((:

BABY FOXY

i still miss euu kirs.

2007-09-21T00:17:00.001+08:00

I know whose reading, whose browsing and whose spreading this blog's written posts. All I have to do is close one eye, and see who have the last laugh. And I'm not afraid, why should I be. When I've done nothing wrong. Zz, por's coming back in a few hours time. Finally can disturb again, hear your 'wa lau's over and over. Damned, I happened to pass by a blog. Guess what, techno fever. Lmao, makes me think of Sec2. Techo craze. But the 'feel's gone, no more high'ness'. Roflwtf. Horribly memorable in 2005. Aww whatever lah. Need to go sleep already, or else later I'll absent myself from school again. N level in approximately a weeks time, fucking haleluyah.

FENN

Damn shit.

2007-09-16T23:42:00.000+08:00

goin gentin in few more hrs time. *YAWNS* damn tired now after last mins of packin due to my laziness. hehs ;). went to bugis again wit bro. help him choose shirt lahx jean lahx and he bought hmmm 1 pair of jean, 2 long sleeve,1 short sleeve and 1 button shirt. wee,he didn't complain he spend lots instead he told me he alway buy 3 pair of shirt aready 150 plus liao. now is like so cheap. -________-". and ho ya,saw his ex amanda and HIM! but i didn't look at him. *LAUGHS* but i'm glad i saw him again. ((: mayb he will soon forget me and delete my contact from his fone but den i won't forget him. *LOVES* really verix happy and his hand are recoverin le. *GLADGLAD* and ya por pls take care of yourself. i'll call euu when i reach there and i gonna miss euu. ((: and PLS STUDY HARD! i treat euu eat IF euu promote to SEC 5. ilu!

BABY FOXY

2007-09-15T21:22:00.000+08:00

jux haf a super duper full dinner wit family at house downstair. celebrate daddy 53th b day. ((: actually was yest de bbut den daddy wan postpone to today. went to bugis today wit bro, he wanted to buy some shirt to bring to genting and wear. in the end he didn't buy anythin in fact he say tml go again and buy.-____-" waste my trip to there. but den nvm. manage to see ELJL,he was workin and i'm glad i saw him. so happy.hopefully i'll see him again tml when i go bugis. ((: i still can't forget him. althought it hurt bbut den i try my verix best to make myself happy. boy,euu knw tat your face and eveythin pop out in my mind. i really do miss your hugs and your sweet kisses. i'm still waitin for the days to be lay in your arms again. *LOVES* goin out later again. to where? no idea,mayb be a good gal stayin at home jux for one day ba. countless days tat i didn't go home and sleep instead i sleep at friend house -____-". *LAUGHS* nvm, holidays. ((: an d ho ya,i'm happy to haf my por back again.

BABY FOXY

2007-09-13T22:51:00.000+08:00

i didn't say it your fault neither i pin point too. all i wan to knw is the truth. why can't let me knw den. it make me tink more nonsense stuff when ppl hidin stuff from me. if euu wouldn't believe them euu won't be leavin me alone. when will euu get the real stories? for me i dun tink so. like TB de case. did the truth ever out. the ans is no. till now is a unknown of wat happen. thought we onli suspect is she but we get no prove. ppl can push blame around and yes a thief won't say themselve is a thief. but den when will tis ting stop. i dun wan both of us become like tis. from the closest becomin a stranger or a hi-bye friend. i may not good in puttin words or sayin good ting, but seriously say i do treasure euu and wan euu back like in the past. i treat euu really like a close sis. it really hurt me tat euu left me alone. i really appreciate tat euu alway here for me.

BABY FOXY

2007-09-13T19:38:00.000+08:00

What else other than a no for an answer? I don't want you to think otherwise. Fine, my fault then. What else? OH ! 'MY ATTITUDE'! Please man, everytime we go out, we have nothing to talk about. Other then getting pissed at the point of coming out for dead silence walk, what do you think. Told you the communication gets so fucking little everytime we meet. Either one of us will be busy using the phone lah, messaging lah .. etc. Getting everyone out to talk again is useless. You never know whose telling the truth or not. Like a thief would never admit he stole something. Hey, I trusted and believe you, just that I have doubts. Maybe for the fact that we're not so close anymore and so much thing had happened this year, not thinking otherwise is another thing already. You want me to fully have no doubts about you? Then post something with sincerity that can convince me. If you think this is not going to help, I have nothing to say. If I never treat you as important person, why did I bother to waste my time calling you and console you, hear your problems. You should know lah hor, I don't call people for the sake of listening only. If you're not important, you'd be long ago gone in my list of people. Unless it's gonna happen, meaning we'll be hi-bye friends. You think I give up that easily? Think again. I have my doubts, get this clear. I just want to be convinced that everything I think is wrong, ALL WRONG. And now I'm saying this, I don't believe in outside stories 'till I have the real story. Just in case everything is true, I'm made to believe that something is going to happen.

2007-09-13T17:45:00.000+08:00

true side i'll nv ever knw. why? cos no one wan tell me. all i can do is ask and ask, in the end still i get nothin but jux an ans they still contact. rmb i asked euu, either he still contact euu, the ans euu told me is no. but den now? i nv treat euu as extra b4. told euu le, once holiday i'll get euu out wit me. in the end tings happen again. whenever euu are sad or wat i tried my best to cheer euu up. sometime i did ask euu wat happen when euu are pissed off or wat but euu ans me wit 没有东西. onli sometime euu will tell me. i try my best to give watever ting euu need le. i even try not to let euu sianx when we go out. i dun wan your attitude to pop out whenever we meet. i wan euu to be the same as in the past. no attitude again when we meet, no face given except for da smile and laugh and enjoyin havin fun wit friends. if like tis the best i rather dig all the ppl out and sit down to clarify who speakin the true and not. either i really did tis or not. till now i can tell euu i nv treat euu as an extra. to me euu are important. but did euu ever treat me important?

12o9o7

went bugis wit classmates and teacher. gather together and have our last class meal. won't be seein them expect for few onli in the hosp. kinda sad lorx. after eat finish me,fiee,gab,nas and wan go geylang jalan jalan. *LAUGHS* went to see the chicks there. some sexy some were like ermmmmmmm. =x no comment. we walk till around 9 den i headed to friend house slack. again i didn't went home sleep. till afternoon i'm back home again. BORED BORED BORED! ho ya,yest havin earthquack and while we were eatin at bugis we can feel the shakin. LOL. it was quite shaky and we thought wat happen. it shake for onli a few sec. *LAUGHS* all of us were shock lorx. lucky nothin happen. gonna stop here le. bb!

BABY FOXY

wat hurts the most

is being so close

2007-09-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

This is what you may think, I trust him, I believe him. Did you ever know the true side ? And yet ? Everytime you're sad and all, I manage to ask you what happen. But what about me ? Did you ever ask about my problems ? Eg. "How're you ? Everything going on fine?" Not at all. It's always when I'm gone away from this blog then you realise. What if it's too late ? It's true we're no longer as close, the communication gets so fucking little everytime we meet. Being pissed is what I am. You may think that you're always trusting me, not believing others. You're not in my shoes at all, I've tried so hard to believe you times again and again. But how come the things I heard from others are like a matching puzzle ? I trusted you in not saying anything else, not believing any god-damned word others say. Then suddenly again I felt like a substitude. Like when everything's alright, where were you ? Out having fun ? Did you ever thought of what am I doing or thinking or worrying about. I'm not actually saying you're at fault, but then again, I don't want to be someone whose just a needy extra; needed when troubled, gone when not. You're hurt no doubt, WHAT ABOUT ME ?! Why is it you're always hurt .. I have nothing else to say .. Whatever you may think .. I guess nothing helps anymore .. Not that I want to give up .. I'm more tired then you are girl .. Do you really understand the position I'm in ? I guess not ..

2007-09-12T16:29:00.000+08:00

back to home again. yest went to meet k*** ,y**b***, jie ting and steve at k*** house. y**b*** come down my house and fetch me there. ASS -_____-" drive so fast like nobody business. *LAUGHS* after tat around 9 plus went pub wit yang. we went to the pub called 6 am. there still got his few friends there. the b day boy goin drunk aready lorx. and toopid him ask me play game. make me drink one small cup ofpure martell. the kick is comin. wah lao eh, sibei hot lorx when swollow it down. yuck! after tat i nv play den i drink onli liao le. due to tat si pugong mention the EL. make me wanna drink more and more. nabei, drink till i cannot make it. FCUK! my head was damn damn giddy and pain. after tat i asked him to fetch me back to k*** there. he called him and dun knw say wat. haas.b4 goin back,i vomit out. sibei er xin. but the feelin was so shiok. i feel verix numb on my body. ((: den he send me back to simei. i was sleepin in the cab. zZzZ. he send me up till k*** house i asked him to called k*** tell him i outside and fetch me. den they all come out. keep on wantin to vomt. -____-" back in k***house. i was damn depress. i went to the toilet and lock myself up. cry in the toilet. haix. i wasn't strong at all. i'm really verix tired le. all the while is she console me, pei me. but jux b-cos of him, she might trusted. i'm hurt. i knw they two still contact,but i didn't took my courage to ask. i dun wan any conflict. i been tinkin, i nv give up on her, watever ppl say i dun even wan to trust. i choose to believe her no matter wat. but why she so softhearted. but den i dun blame her. cos we are driftin apart,no longer verix close in the past. so tis might be the reason. haix. yest really can't stop myself from cryin. anyway, really enjoy drinkin ya, i wanna go dfrink again. to numb myself. and he didn't reply my msg. i miss euu boy ELJL! goin bath now. meetin all my classmate at bugis. tata~

BABY FOXY

i'm not a strong gal

where my smile?

2007-09-09T21:02:00.000+08:00

i dun knw wat goin on, but still i'll update the blog and dun make it goes dead.

o7o9o7

smsed euu. i took my courage and msg euu,tellin euu how i feel, how i wanted euu by my side and i regreted.but your reply telli me is jux like i'm too late for tellin euu all tis. euu told me if i accept euu on tat day euu asked me euu wont say all tis. euu haf ting to settle and dun knw how long euu need. euu asked me not to wait there more other good guy outside. and so? your face been popin out in my mind. i really wanna hold euu again. euu makin me goin mad. haix. went to meet steve and friends at simei. dun really haf the mood. but still i didn't give any attitude or watever shit! ((:

o8o9o7

went study at woodland wit friends and i'm late so i haf to bought sweet for them. finish studyin and went off at around 3. meet steve again and went simei awhile. ((: steve went to work aready after tat i headed TM to meet mummy and sis for shoppin till around 8 plus. biao ge called and asked me to go eat and i agree. at first is go katong eat but his daddy take the van away so bo pian we go MR PRATA and eat. )): eat finish aready saw yang they all. *LAUGHS* disturb the uncle by order dun knw the meal they duyn even knw. -____________-" den biao ge bring me home. on the way back at 447 saw da li. OMG. i been wishin tat i could saw him.finally,althought it was far from me but i could saw him. HAPPY ((:. den around 1 like tis waited for steve at my hse after tat go OCH meet keng they all. and the bytch was there. and it spoil my mood. __ went home today at abt 4 plus. and bytch dun keep on gossip abt ppl lahx. wan say ting say it infront of me lahx. dun add pepper chilli or watever shit wan. i hate ppl sayin wu a bo a stuff k. to clarify ting the best is dig out all the ppl who say all tis and sit down tok lahx. i'm clear i dun haf to scared. __ WTF~ BIG MOUTH. tata~

BABY FOXY

2007-09-06T17:38:00.000+08:00

holiday is gettin nearer and nearer le. *SMILIN* ((: yest he called me and he bluff me again. sayin tat he msg me b4 he go to bed. haix. i really wanna tell euu how i feel bbut i dun knw how to start. i wanna lay in your arms again. really verix happy to heard your voice again. your face keep on appearin in my mind, i miss euu ELJL. shit, is my face really gettin more and more emo huh? i try to smile more lahx. stop complainin abt my face can? osmost everyday my face look like tis. so no complainin. ((: should i go work later? kinda lazy. i'm BORED at home now. nothin to do again. tink i goin to catch some sleep.hehs~ niteyyyyy.

BABY FOXY

2007-09-05T19:02:00.000+08:00

i miss him, i miss him, seriously i do miss him lahx~ i wan euu to be my side again. 11o8o7 where i first knew euu. euu brought me to pub wit kang and jun jie. euu try to make me smile even when euu knw i'm sad. euu bought me roses 2pink and 1red to make my smile more bright. euu told them i'm your gf when at the pub. euu hold my hand and bring me wherever euu go. but den i keep on rejected euu on tat day. few days later euu jio me again and i rejected euu. i told euu i dun haf the mood to get in r/s. and euu say when i wan it i tell euu. when euu in hosp,i pei euu till euu asleep. euu gave me the wrong idea tat we were in r/s. it hurt when euu told me tat we haf not know each other well. till well den say. i regret now. really i do for not acceptin euu at the verix first place. i misses euu alot. i really hope tat i could lay in your arms. i waitin for your sms and waitin to see euu again. i keep on tink of the days euu wit me. it jux so sweet. i wan it again. BOY I REALLY DO MISS EUU! ELJL [DL]. :((

BABY FOXY

i miss euu

2007-09-03T14:28:00.000+08:00

back home early from sch thankx to mummy and sis. due to they forget to bring key i haf to rush back home and givin my teacher nonsense excuses. *LAUGHS* nvm den i can rest at home. ((: msg him, askin how his hand. and he reply. it indeed tat we are gettin apart. not tat close aready. gettin more like stranger. althought it hurt bbut den i aready give up on guys. no more trust for them. no more love for them. euu lied and euu bluff and euu give excuses to cover up your butt. nvm it ok. i'm ok wit it. up to euu wanna bluff or watever shit. i dun give a damn now. i will onli pei he and entertain euu. till now, i'm still moody at times. friends ask and i say "i'm fine, i jux feel tired" and gave them force smile.hehs. everydays same old excuses. tink they gettin bored of my excuses liao. ((: anyway, any butch to intro? =x and i miss euu!

BABY FOXY

2007-08-31T19:59:00.000+08:00

DEPRESSION

where is my smile nOw? i can hardly smile nowdays. gettin more and more moody. i wanna forget euu. forget everythin of yours.euu msg me, and euu aplogise AGAIN, euu regret. and SO i dun care. my mind is SET. i won't get back wit euu mean i won't. feelin so tired recently tOo. i dun knw wat i wanna do and wat i'm tinkin. haix. and euu tis kuku, euu bluff me again. say wan msg me later in the end nv even msg. i not dumbdumb k. ASS! i LOVE tis sOng lots ---> euu were my everything. it bring me to the past of me and him. but den it more suit for him to me. hahax. ((: he hope tat i'll be back in his arms but i won't,nv again euu will see me.

BABY FOXY

i wan my smile back

2007-08-29T16:14:00.000+08:00

2 days didn't sleep well le. can say i sleep less den 2 hrs ba. and straight away went to sch. someting hapen on monday,joan called and asked me go down simei. settle some idiotic stuff which make me till so tu lan. i alone went down and settle wit them. after tat nothin happen to me but i pick up all the shit which left by she. so pi cek. she the one who called me and tell me to come down settle. jux become of YB shoot ice euu tu lan and went home without sayin anythin. ARGH~ and left all the shit for me to pick up. i hope tat everythin is settle. i'm sick and tired aready. and ho ya, my heart is really dead. i dun haf any feelin not anymore. all i wan is to haf time for my soOn-to-become-BOTAK por more. yest went to watch DEAD SILENCE wit my staff nurse MR TALL TALL. he was late again. but nvm. ((: watched at TM andd it a damn bad decision made to watch at TM. saw friends i knw de. like YANG and his 3 friends, kelvin my primary sch friend, chee seng xiao de, alex and his friends. it like all look so beng lorx. scary. plus joseph de friend who work there. OMG. next time dun wan watch movie at TM le. =x anyway, tis show quite BORED seriously. regret wanna watch tis. nvm den. aready watch le. next movie i wanna watch de is 1408! ((: i go get some rest le.

BABY FOXY

2007-08-27T18:47:00.000+08:00

in the end my tears roll down once again. and i'm hurt. my heart will nv be mend. even it is there will be a deep deep scar which will nv be heal. i had enough of everythin. and i nearly tink of doin somethin toopid again. bbut i didn't. after a big cry, i feel much better. but den my mood still wasn't here yet. well den, mayb i haf give up ba. my heart is dead now. mayb i'll smile and laugh but it not truly from my heart. for now, i NEED NO GUYS,NO ROMANCE cos i had enough. LOVES MY PORs! POR PLS UPDATE IF NOT I BITE AND NIAM! ((: LOVES

*BANG*

my heart is bleedin and it dead

BABY FOXY

2007-08-26T04:59:00.000+08:00

jux back from BEDOK KTV wit POR and DENNIS. was enjoy wit them. laughin througout the whole nite. till my stoamch cramp.after singin, we went 476 de MR PRATR eat. por was playin her hp face wrap. *LAUGHS* i let her took my foto and we were like laughin all the way. bth~ damn funny. por took herself and dennis toO. the face was like so er xin and funny. ho ya. my conflict wit pOr are settle. listen ppl outside, if euu wanna separate us euu can jux try bbut dun let us caught euu. bloody hell. i won't jux trusted euu like tis.i will still trust my por MOST! get a better story and try den. FCUKER! dun be a TOOPID DUMB ASS infront of us. and your act has been caught. dumbdumb. i'm out wit kelly toO. abt around 6 plus. went tO bugis walk walk b4 meetin por and dennis. my hand started to itchy but still i can't spend money. zZzZ. it like cannot tahan lorx. saw da li and kang workin. LOL. da li in the shop and kang was at the other side of the shop. *LAUGHS* really enjoys myself today. thankx pOr, ilu! ((:

BABY FOXY

i'm ok wit it

if euu dosen't wan to care!

2007-08-25T14:57:00.000+08:00

tears roll down from my eyes. and i can't stop it. it hurt. why? wat goin on. we are driftin apart. wat happen? i dun knw. i gettin more and more moody each days. dun haf the mood to meet friends expect euu. euu should knw i sayin abt euu. but euu were out wit friends till 3 plus. tis is the time where i'm outside gettin fresh air and askin ppl to make me smile. hope we meet again. imu! and my mind is totally shut from outside world

CORRUPTED MIND

FADIN AWAY

pls wipe my tears away

BABY FOXY

my fake smile is back~

my heart is broken

2007-08-25T00:03:00.000+08:00

my mind corrupted now. i dun knw wat i wan. and i dun knw wat i wan to do. and soon i will be FADIN AWAY. . . . .

i give up!

BABY FOXY~

2007-08-23T02:55:00.000+08:00

jux reach home. jux now went to cousin hse. was rushin my project to finish up. finish at abt 11 plus and my cousin were all asleep. includin my ah ma. hahax. thankx cousin! after tat went to 476 de mr prata eat wit izzudin kor and wait for por. finaally can meet her liao, i'm happy. ((: waited for por from 11.45 to 12 plus. in the end meet her at nearby 445 there. we chatted. it been so long we chatted like tis. really do enjoys. ((; por! seriously say i do used to it euu by my side. dun throw me alone again.or else i cry! ilu!

BABY FOXY

2007-08-21T16:12:00.000+08:00

yest was mummy bday. celebrate at hse downstair. we eat steamboat! not bad, it been long tat i eat wit them. happi happi. i realise tat ting wasn't the same. it seem like we are driftin apart. from the verix close till now are gettin apart. i'm sad. ii dun wanna lose euu. mayb euu dun trust but den i really treasure euu. euu are the onli one who stand by me no matter wat. i dun wanna lose euu,seriously.jux read the past post. my tears jux dropped. all the past memories. how i wish i can go back to the past. por! i miss euu. we say b4, i wont leave euu and so do euu too. i wan to be like the past. how i wish! later goin out. now waitin for momoren to wake up. such a pig! jux trim my hair, look much more neater now. hahax. gonna stop here.

HAPPY BELATED BDAY MUMMY!

BABY FOXY

2007-08-18T00:47:00.000+08:00

i realise tat i might be a burden to others. i alway cause troubles and might endin up hurtin ppl. euu alway hurt me. i'm wordless and por i'm soli if i keep on trouble euu. if euu tink i verix irritatin jux tell me k. really soli. i give up. euu wanna find trouble euu go ahead ba. *PORs LOVES* ((:

BABY FOXY

2007-08-16T14:14:00.000+08:00

guys are bastard. mayb his ex will happen to read my blog and hopefully she will understand wat kind of guy he is. (: asked him and he told me tat it his friend. NOT EVEN as a ex. it like WTF lo. her blog is fake wan arx. say wat she anyhow write. hei. if euu wanna act i can act along wit euu toO. i'm NOT AN IDIOT! euu gOt to be smart k. anyway,i wOn't be hurt by tis. my heart is totally shut. nO one can enter except for my precious pOr. indeed he's sweet. no wonder tat amanda LOVE him so much. well,flirt guys alway haf SWEET mouth! i'm ok wit it. can at least brighten up my day for somehow. ((: i wanna haf some P E A C E can. cry yest at 477,he approached and wipe my tears away. he wanted to hug me but i back off. i'm HURT and i'm DEAD! he send me home and he give me a kiss on lip and on the forehead b4 he go back. SHOCKIN lorx. it like so sudden! -___-" he asked me nOt to tink so much andd smile more. he's indeed sweet thought but he LIED! tinkin tat he smart enuff to bluff me. he say he will meet me alway and really do like to meet him cos he really make me laugh. haas. i wan a WARM HUG and a SHOULDER for me to cry. i wan a bf who really LOVE me and DUN threaten me at all. i feel like givin up my life. i haf no interest in serious r/s now. i can't take it. it hurtful. all i left is the STARS & MOON. it follow me wherever i gO.

all i wan is P E A C E

L O V E

P A M P E R

N O L I E S

N O T H R E A T E N

it E N O U G H

BABY FOXY

2007-08-16T01:40:00.000+08:00

FCUKKKKKKKKKK LAHX~ history is repeatin again. and i'm goin mad. *WORDLESS*

我放弃!

BABY FOXY

2007-08-14T03:38:00.000+08:00

i give up. i no longer the gal i used to be. i'm sick and tired of it. i shall not say much. i keep everythin to myself den. my heart is lock. and i'm hurt. 我的笑容没有了.

BABY FOXY

my smile iish GONE

2007-08-13T13:18:00.000+08:00

chatted wit shevone yest. (: haas. and we agree tat guys are toopid. even thought they alway thought tat they are smart. nahx. gerls are smarter *CHEERS* (;. ho well,i started to give up everythin. even it hurt but i still wanna toO. it past nearly 2 yrs de memories and i wanna say goodbye. it hurtful,those words,those threatenin,those violent euu given it to me. euu even say dun force me to slap euu. wat rites euu haf to slap me? euu are really verix sweet when euu haf no temper at all. euu bring me out,buy things for me and pamper me sometime. i LOVE stayin by your side. it make me feel warm and secure by euu. bbut i still can't forget all those words euu say and the ting euu do to me. i had enuff le. i really cannot take it. i dun feel like trustin euu anymore. it hurt when i trust and euu lies. and euu say euu love me but euu dun trust. it hurt toO when i heard it. it obvious tat euu dun really love me le. euu treat bros more important. i rmb once i asked euu who more important and euu can't ans me. nvm. i aready lettin go slowly and i really scare of gettin r/s again. i still LOVE euu and euu alway be in my heartx even though we will end up in being good close friend. :(

BABY FOXY

all i wan is a sweet and last long r/s

and trueful to me!

2007-08-12T05:47:00.000+08:00

back home. jux nOw went to geylang lor 42 de pub wit da li they all. after tat went to 97 de disco. so messy over there lorx. go in within awhile jiu you tis and tat. and ya. euu are a BASTARD. she can wei le ni kanna car bang and cry non stop and yet euu can ENJOY yourself here wit us. BLOODY HELL~euu should go die lahx. FCUKER! ANTI-GERLS HEARTBREAKER. suddenly i dun haf the mood to trust guys anymore ba. mostly all are a BASTARD. alway hurt gerls feelin and yet they still haf the cheek to say is gerl cheated their feelin. WTH~ GUYS COME LAHX, see yourself first before sayin us gerls.when gal are faithful to euu,euu guys tend to fool around. when gals feelin fade after knowin all the stuff euu done, euu guys blame them for takin them granted or knw other new guy. wtfcukin wrong wit guys mind. jux HATE it.argh~ and POR good luck for your prelim worx. *LOVES*

BABY FOXY

forget abt every single shit!

2007-08-10T00:30:00.000+08:00

BORED BORED BORED~ jux realise tat my attitude iish comin back again. -__-" HATE* i will jux vent my anger and give face whenever i not happy. treat me good and i'll treat euu good. if euu treat me bad,i'll return euu more.andd dinO,where the hell euu gO. BLOODY HELL~ bz till there nO single msg from euu. 恐龙蛋 __. ARGH~ i jux can't control my anger. how how? another month more i goin GENTING again. sianx. alway go there. dun feel like goin lorx. bbut being drag by mummy. nvm den. pei her lorx. make her happi happi. i'm a mummy gerl. hahax. goin sleep le. niteyyy!

BABY FOXY

2007-08-08T14:18:00.000+08:00

another ppl ended his life yest at MRT TAMPINES. saw the dead body. bbut dun worry it being wrap up by black bag den i saw. stand there for abt 2 hrs jux to see them dig out the body. so poor ting. why choose to die at MRT track huh? body being separate, smached. will it still be one whole piece when become a soul or spirit?? wonderin where will we went to after we were dead? will we still able to see the world. as our soul and spirit wanderin around.or it jux totally shut off from the world. meanin no longer knw wat happen to the world anymore. life are so werid. some struggle to live and some jux throwin away their life. we really do live ONCE onli. and havin sad or happy memories. we will den forget tis memories after we were dead. how ii wish there no death,no saddness. ppl livin in a happy mind. as for me, i dun knw how to treasure my life at first. i tend to do silly ting, and sort of torturin myself toO. bbut den now, i no longer the past gal i was. even thought i still not strong now. i dun really do all tis ting again. i haf a DEAREST POR who LOVES me lots. who stand by me toO. she the one who make my world go lalala~ i wan to live on. even thought i havin some sot brain. it ok. ii won't do silly ting bbut may sometime stayin in my own world. sweet sweet world. where i dun haf to bother abt other stuff. (: i wan to be happy,i wan to haf a BIG SMILEEEEEEE on my face! SWEEEEEEET. dinO dinO dinO BLOODY HELL~ (;

BABY FOXY

double chocolate r so nice

can i haf e whole donut factory?

2007-08-06T06:55:00.000+08:00

i LOVE my POR!

the PAST i'll nv FORGET

HAPPINESS!

BOO! update update. jux reach home not long from east coast and i feelin sleepy. sch mate meet me later at 9am to go p.ubin. dun tink i can go le. soli. cos i'm TIRED aready. ((: went to east coast to catch doll wit yee beng andd keng toO. we catch omost all the mushroom. how many we catch. hmmm. 8 total gOt 9. LOL. let them cry. hahax. who ask them so L.L __ cos we fri got go there catch doll le.we catch alot den they nOt happy say we steal the doll and shake the machine and the machine was spoil. WTH~ den call police all tio screen. bbut den iit nothin after all lahx. yee beng and keng wanna beat the bloody L.L guy wan. bbut in the end dun haf cos if he report comfirm main suspect is us de. common sense de horx. ho ya. i workin again le.so sway kanna attack by a cat while workin. dun even knw how it get into the store. curse tat blackie cat lahx __. dun ever let me knw whose your owner toO. BLOODY HELL KAO~~~ now my chest there got your bloody scratch mark. argh~ andd tat toopid dinO MIA AGAIN lahx~ 2 1/2 days liao. ASS!

BABY FOXY

2007-08-01T19:04:00.000+08:00

por msg me. wantin to meet me and explain. bbut den ii told her i still believe in her. por it ok. no matter wat i still believe in euu. i tink through le. i still can't afford to lose euu. like euu say if euu become les, i OPEN my big arm and welcome euu. (: i won't run away. euu are still my best por! see when euu wanna tell me den tell ba. finally.tat dinO msg me. jux gOt back his line. he apologise andd i dun blame him. asked him questions and he replied. well den,still i dun really believe. trutin ppl hurt myself if it a fake ans. nvm den if euu dun understand. i feelin better nOw. i started to smile after pOr msg me. mayb i can be les wit her le. pOr wan? LOL. anyway, i skipped genro class. reason: cos i'm tired of seein her face for 5 hrs. bored rite,seein a teacher face for 5 hrs. plus copyin non stop notes. copy till hand swollen. ke lianx. anyway, feelin sleepy nOw. i shall get some rest first le. goin out later. bb~

BABY FOXY

i love standn under e rain

cos it can wash away all my saddness

andd nO one can able tO

saw my tears rollin dOwn

2007-07-31T20:54:00.000+08:00

my heart hurt. my heart seem like it goin to break into pieces again. dun bother to ask why den. ppl are puttin a mask on them. i'm alone. all alone. i hate backstabber. why do he/she wan did tis to me. i believe he/she bbut why? who sayin the truth now? 他还是他? i dun feel like trustin anyone. NOT anymore! i'm tired, really verix tired le. sometime i really wanna let go of everythin. everythin tat i haf now. my head hurt. i really dun knw wat to do. i need a shoulder. i need someone. someone who could be here for me. i goin mad. and i HATE euu toO. dinO!! it ok wit me.if euu happen to saw myy blog, i dun blame euu. but thankx for pei me. it make me happy.(: take carex ya. dun get sick again. izzudin kor called me. miss him lorx. hahax. wonder how he look like now. hmmm. skinny? fat? more yandao?? LOL. anyway. better dun tink much le ba. byeeee.

BABY FOXY

2007-07-29T22:48:00.000+08:00

ting wasn't the same as before. everythin change. i really wish the time could brought me back to the past. i hate guys seriously i do now. even thought sometime i feel like havin a him beside me. guys please dun sweet mouth to gals if euu aren't true to them. when gal are serious euu playin wit their feelin. till den they fade their feelin andd euu started to love them. dun euu tink tat sometime it will be abit too late? i dun trust guys not anymore. even thought i LOVE their mushy words bbut den it NO LONGER goes into my heartx. i can't take it. asked lao da : wat does a guy brain contain(their tinkin)? lao da replied: eh depends de lah, diff guys diff tinkings de mah. RUBBISH! =x anyway, i dun wanna tink much le. niteyyyy

BABY FOXY

2007-07-24T20:50:00.000+08:00

feelin verix moody out of the sudden. it seem like i startin not to trustin guy in watever they say. expect for friends. again i start to withdraw myself from friends too. for no reason i feel like cryin. for no reason i feel tat i'm all alone. for no reason i feel trouble andd tink tat i'm useless. am i all alone? i can't force myself to smile anymore. sometime i really feel verix tired. really wanna close my eyes and not openin it. if i MIA por gonna scold me and ii can't left her alone. why is tis happenin to me again? is the past goin to happen again? i wonder~ if it is i wanna all the happiness to happen but not all the sadness.

BABY FOXY

2007-07-21T20:41:00.000+08:00

argh~ NOT gonna trust guys. not anymore! jux HATE their empty promises andd those words they say. guy are NOT MEND to be trusted. goin out later wit por sing andd den hope got ___________ to drink. LOL! shhhhhhhhhhhhh~ sianx sia. today NURSES DAY. watched concert in sch. not bad lorx bbut kinda BORED! bad por. disturb me iin the shout out. i bite euu arx. (: myy fone bill gonna BURST liao. TOO MUCH smses liao. cut down cut down got to cut down. hahax. tata~ i need no LOVE,hopefully! (:

BABY FOXY

2007-07-16T20:04:00.000+08:00

blog blog blog! firstly ii wanna thankx POR for sendin me all the pic tat we toOk.. (: secondly, i'm HUNGRY anyone can tabao for me?? -_______-" .. i BORED now.. alone at home.. chattin wit ivan on msn.. idiot keep on psycho me eat mac.. later ii BOX him den he knw.. LOL.. ii wan a SWEET andd LOVIN BF.. whO dun care myy ATTITUDE and STUBBORNESS.. lOve mE for who i am.. can grant myy wish? LOL.. ho ya.. myy IDIOTIC KOR IZZUDIN bluff mie again.. zZzZ.. say wan call me when reach thailand.. nv even call lorx.. your thailand at where sia.. so long haben reach.. wan die arx.. ii gonna scold you when you call me! (:

BABY FOXY

2007-07-10T14:19:00.000+08:00

in sch now.. lesson was cancel den now at com lap slackin till 4.. sianx lo... today end at six.. iit like omost everyday end at six lorx.. zZzZ.. start at 8am end at 6pm.. WTH~ long hrs in sch.. makin me alway tired andd not eonugh sleep.. tink i gonna get myy panda eyes again.. =x.. sch was bored norhx.. how i wish ii dun need to go sch anymore andd ii fail myy bio 2 again after retake.. -_____-" ii hate iit.. got to retake again next year.. siaaaaaaaaaaanx NAHX! bbut den dun need to go back everydday.. jux come back for test.. bbut den can i pass without studyin??? :s nehx.. dun tink so again lorx.. BORED! :)))

BABY FOXY

2007-07-08T19:35:00.000+08:00

back from outside le... went boat quay yest wit humans.. (: went to DESTINY andd drink.. MARTELL... shiok lorx.. so long nv drink le.. hahax.. after tat went to lai pa sa andd eat.. eat till damn full lorx.. got 3o sticks of satays,string ray,lala,zuzu andd ice kachang... after tat walk around to get some digestion plus lookin for cab.. hohox.. ho ya.. jux before when i come home jux now.. went to TM andd guess who ii saw again at b1.. is like why am i alway tat sway lehx? LOL.. saw tat teeboon again nahx~~~~~~~~ sianx 1/2 lorx.. NO MOOD again.. hhe was iin yoshinoya.. ii was outside so he didn't saw me :DD..tml sch reopen le.. so sianx.. dun even feel like goin to sch le even thought i left onli 3 month in sch.. zZzZ.. goin watch tv le.. tata~~~~

BABY FOXY

2007-07-02T23:49:00.000+08:00

watched TRANFORMER yest at marina square.. damn nice movie and it touchin too when comin to the back part.. andd the car was damn nice to lorx when they tranform themselve to car.. myy fone was empty batt the whole day till today mornin.. guess why myy fone no batt.. thankx to myy por.. LOL.. BOMBIN my fone wit LOTS of missed call.. from two batt till bo batt.. power sia she... =x.. tink got nearly 50 plus 60 like tis lorx.. and i'm sleepin soundly... hahax.. den por finally got myy called at bt 7 plus.. LOL.. long waitin of my call.. ho ya.. i'm been ADDICTED to tis COOKIES & CLODS! iit was yummy.. :)) andd ii was like eatin omost everyday.. OMTIAN arx.. gonna get sore throat soon de le.. bbut iit really hard to stop once euu tried it.. andd ii eatin iit now.. woO~

PRINCESS FOXY

i'm ADDICTED to euu

COOKIES & CLODS

2007-06-27T16:23:00.000+08:00

BORED! sch reopen soon.. left 11 more days to sch... and ii gonna grad soon le.. time passes so fast.. bbut den how ii wish ii still can get back in 2oo6 those last 3 month... saw shawn last sat at tamp MRT station.. didn't really stare at him.. once i saw i jux turn myy head and walk away.. bbut can confirm it him.. oh ya.. i wanna go pular ubin again.. who wanna go? argh... tink i goin mad soon.. gettin bored more and more each day.. andd doin the same ting over and over again... oh my god! zZzZzZzZ.............

FOXY

2007-06-23T18:28:00.000+08:00

jux back from pular ubin.. went there wit my bro and cousin.. hahax.. so so fun... cyclin around.. myy leg turn lemon lorx.. didn't manage to saw wild boar.. bbut den ii saw monkey..jumpin here and here.. (: plus rambutan and durian.. wahahax.. was havin heavy rain half way and we are all wet.. bbut den we carry on cyclin.. iit was so fun andd coolin.. i wanna go there again... ii wanna see wild boar!

FOXY MIE